I went to the eye doctor today. My eyesight has really deteriorated and I put it off all last year because I had so many medical expenses (including my daughter's trip to the emergency room with a kidney infection) I had used up my medical allowance. So I was really looking forward to getting new eye glasses and improving my eyesight.
I have always been VERY nearsighted. Like I cannot get up and go to the bathroom without my glasses. And then when I was in my 40s I couldn't see up close either. That seemed really unfair to me. I took having to get bifocals very hard..
It seemed like both the nearsightedness and the up close problems had gotten a LOT worse in the last few months. So I'm expecting a new prescription and everything will be fine.
Instead the doc says about the near sightedness "I'm afraid we can't improve that anymore." WHAT? And the up close was only a tiny improvement. "Oh" she says cheerfully, "You have some cateracts in both your eyes. That's normal with aging. It will cloud your vision a bit. We don't have to do anything about it yet."
That was easy a young and perky doctor with either perfect eyesight or perfectly fixed eyesight to say.
Yes I know I have to put it all in perspective. I can still see. I can drive. I'm in pretty darn good shape for a 52 year old and there are enough people who say "Really you are 52? No you aren't that old" that I think it's not just flattery, I still look young. And I am grateful that when the time comes, I will be able to have surgury to remove the cateracts. But still.
It's just that my arthritis is coming back in my knee and it's not only painful to walk, it's painful to skate which really is worse. And I was so sure they could get my eyesight back to normal. What I fear I am seeing clearly is my future and I don't like it.
Maybe I should eat some more carrots.